Ayup dad, its christmas eve and it is another 1st without you, we have had alans birthday, yours and mums 49th wedding anniversay, lukes birthday, your birthday and now christams and rileys birthday. Makes us all feel so sad that you are not here to share these moments with us anymore, sorry, its wrong to say you are not here to share, you are always with us in some way im sure, and thats what helps, knowing that you are here around us , because i know for a fact you wouldnt miss them at all :)
As i sit and write this i am playing the music that you would always play, its crazy how such a simple thing as a song can make you feel close and make me smile, but for that i am thankful because there are so many things that you did that remind me of you, it can be a song or a phrase, a smell, and it just reminds me of you, they can make me cry or just smile from ear to ear, i cry because i miss you so much to a point where it hurts and donsnt feel like it will ever get better, but then i smile because i got to call you dad and those memories or reminders are mine, and mums and alans , and everyone elses who loved you.
I just hope where ever you are, you are having a good knees up and enjouying yourself, because one things for sure, you knew how to enjouy yourself and light up any room you walked into dad.
Dont ever think there is a day that goes by where you are not in our thoughts and hearts, you will always be there until it is out time to meet again.
I love you dad and always will.
Always in my thoughts and forever in my heart.
love,
sarah xx
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