Barry Walbridge (13 Feb 1957 - 28 Aug 2019)

Hey Bear im so sorry that ive been away for a while been struggling a little on my own but have now met a wonderful man called Pete who I believe you sent him to me as he is so so much like you. He makes me laugh and I am happy again but yes I will always love you :-) Bertie likes him too follows him around everywhere.
We are living together now sorry but Bear I was so lonely even more so without Mum around.
When to Utah with Keith and the boys in March and yes actually went ziplining can you imagine ha ha however I have a meniscus tear in my left knee no not good.
Hope you are behaving yourself up there with your antics I still miss you so so much every single day but thank you for sending Pete.
Oh yes Debbie - Tims wife passed away earlier this year - dont think he is coping too well but he will get through it.
Thats it for now Bear not alot else to tell you but I loved you then, loved you now always have always will.
Sleep tight Bearman always yours Chick

Hi bear so sorry I havent been here for a long while and I havent forgotten your birthday :-) Ive had a tough time the last year - Mum passed 3 days after her birthday so I had to organize her cremation yes with Rory and then had to put the estate into probate before we could sell the house which has now been sold I must admit I struggled with clearing that so I left that to Lin and Ian I think with some help from Emma. The house I think was only up for sale about 3 weeks and then it was sold and we got the asking price! I miss you so so much still even though its nearly 4 years since you left me. What have I been up to Ok went to Chicago whilst over with Keith for the weekend I know you liked it there didnt you remember when we went on the Al Capone tour (so cheesey) and yes done my bucket list of San Francisco and Alcatraz also whale watching in Monterray. Oh yes the hairdressers on Camp have closed after 32 years wow. Went to Keiths for Christmas and New Year he didnt want me to be on my own. Dont worry Bertie has been well looked after by Wendy; Fred and Ant - he has become a ham monster but I wouldnt be without him. Ill be back on Monday for your birthday. Like I said I loved you then, always have always will. Sleep tight my Bearman. I LOVE AND MISS YOU Chick xxxxxxxxxxx

Happy New Year babe but more importantly Happy Heavenly Birthday. Had a bad weekend last weekend with your birthday and Valentines Day remember you always used to get me flowers sometimes 2 lots you know how I love flowers. Funny im getting the smell of your Chanel aftershave most mornings so I know youre still around and also my lights in the front garden have now managed to be heart shaped so again I know its you. At least you are not going through this COVID business we have been on lockdown since 5th January really bad news. Ive had to cancel my trip (again) to Sanibel with Keith & Laura - you had better not be chuckling hopefully ill get out there in June. All is good with me my Bearman but as ive said so many times I miss you like crazy but I know youre in a better place now no more torture as you call the dialysis. I still talk to you an awful lot Bertie looks at me as if im going crazy. I swear he knows when youre around as he suddenly looks at the landing when he is on the bed. I cannot say it enough I love you always have always will.Rest peacefully my sweet man. I will be back :-) love you Bear always your Chick xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Sorry my babe little late but Happy Christmas. Yes as usual I bought too much food I know you tell me every year ha ha. Mum has been staying with me and Bertie she just loves him. The rubber stuff ripped a little off the shed due to the storm we had you would have gone mad I got the step ladder out and took your drill and screwed a screw back in pro temp to hold it on but hope you are proud of me for doing it. Don’t know how you do it but so many odd memories pop into my head last night it was us in Boots at Poole we hadn’t been there for ages! Still missing you like crazy your silliness making me laugh and smile but at least we had that together so many many good times to laugh and smile. I’ll be back on NYE be good up there. Loved you then always have always and always will. Rest and sleep well my amazing Bearman 🐻 as always love your chick 🐤 xxx

Hi my darling I have missed you so much last month especially for my birthday. Got the flowers though and unfortunately had too many cocktails you can blame Keith for that. Yep done all the decorating at home you would be so proud not a bad job I must say. Still finding it so hard without you here but at least you are not struggling or in pain anymore. Bertie has been a massive comfort thank you for getting him for us. I love you with all my heart always have always will. Christmas decorations up too looking good too. Until later this month my sweet Bear. Sleep tight my darling xxxx

Yes im back again as promosed :-) its been chucking it down with rain alot lately and of course your little man doesnt like going out in the rain but he has been so good going out. Still waiting to see if I can fly over to see Keith next month really hope so as I do need the break and see my boys. I will be taking the leave anyway. You will laugh Ginger Viking are doing take away cocktails due to COVID-19 and as I have no one to go in their with ive been getting them for the weekend. Well so strong last weekend my legs went numb and had to crawl up the stairs on my hands and knees lol you would have said its your own fault. Still miss you so so much and talk to you every night it just gives me comfort. Bizarre but I can still feel the touch of your stubble and your hair. I did have a dream a few weeks ago that you were with me in bed stroking my hair telling me everything will be OK apparently this is called a visitation dream. Alot of things give me comfort but also make me sad .... certain tunes on the radio; memories; tv shows and certain foods. I cannot say how much I love and miss you but in a way so glad you didnt have to go through COVID it would have made you more moany. Funny Gina down the road says she misses you moaning :-). Until next month my Bear - sleep tight loved your then always have always will. All my love forever Col & Bertie xxxx

OK I have to take a deep breath as its now coming up a year since you left me for the very last time it was such a hard day I actually said before we went in Keith I cant do this but I got through it and then went and got totally smashed on gin to make the pain go away. I know y0u dont like to see me cry but sorry I do most days still as I keeo saying I miss you so so much. I wish I could have 1 more hour with you but then I would want 2 then a day and so on and then I wouldnt be able to say bye and left you go. At least we managed to get a good day out the Sunday before you passed and you know I still cant go to Baiter along with alot of other places where we used to go - we made many many good happy memories and those can never be taken away. I still play your voice mails and talk to you photos - dont you laugh it just helps me so much. Until next month my beautiful, funny, strong, wonderful Bear the best husband anyone could have wished for. Love you more every day and I know you will be waiting for me so im not afraid of dying. Loved you then always have always will sleep tight by babe tons of love Col & Berie xxxx

I’m back as promised oh my Baz still finding it very very difficult without you or Dad to guide me and give me advice I’m trying my best on my own so getting there. I’ll say it again loved you then always have always will. It’s been a month now since you went peacefully to sleep and I still miss you so so much. I miss the silliness the annoying but most of all you loving me but I know you did right til the end and always putting me first. Until next month my wonderful husband when I’ll be back. Sleep tight my Bear xxx

Hi my Bear I don’t know where the time has gone it’s coming up to our wedding anniversary and nearly 11 months since you went to sleep so peacefully. Yes I still miss you every day like crazy but leaving these messages does give me some comfort-mad I know. The house is full of amazing pictures and photos of you so I can still talk to you but now you don’t answer me back ha ha. Well both Bertie and I love you so much so until next month my darling sleep tight and loved you then always have always will. Your adoring wife xxxx

Well I’m back again and have lit another candle. Oh Baz I’m still finding it very difficult not having you or Dad for guidance and advice but I’m trying to do the best I can on my own and really hope you are proud of me that’s all I ever want is for you to be proud of me. Bertie is doing ok back out with Ant so sad you didn’t get to see him before you passed I know they wouldn’t let me bring him into the hospital. I feel and smell you all around me all of the time so know you haven’t left me which does give me comfort. As I always say loved you then always have always will. Until next month darling sleep tight. Love you Col & Bertie

As long as this is here I will write a message to you and light a candle every month - nothing has changed by babe still miss you like crazy but so glad you didnt have to go through this COVID 19 I know you would have gone stir crazy if you managed to survive it. Well until next month my beautiful man - love you then always have always will. Sleep tight sweet xxxx

Well what can I say babe its now 7 months since you left me and I still cant get to grasps that you are not going to come bustling back through the door having a little moan about something :-) how I miss your smile and your voice - to have you back for 1 hour but then I would want 2 and then I wouldnt want you to go again. Bertie and I are doing OK finding it a little hard at times but staying strong as I know thats what you would have wanted. Loved you then always have always will x

I miss you so so much

I miss you so much my Bearman - love you then; now and always will

You will be missed - Mother

You will be so missed - Mother