Barbara Hill (17 Nov 1949 - 26 Feb 2014)

I miss you more and more every single day some days I don't think I can bare it x

Thinking of you and all who are lost to cancer at this Easter time.

my friend for over fifty years

TRULY GREAT FRIENDS ARE HARD TO FIND, SO DIFFICULT TO LEAVE AND IMPOSSIBLE TO FORGET

The ties that bind will always remain
love margaret

Monday the 17th of October 2013 will probably remain the most terrifying day of my life. That was the day I had my kidney operation, I remember being woken up at 6am by my mum with her usual “come on sparky shake a leg” so I got up I did my normal morning things, with the bag in tow, and soon I was ready for the off. I remember mum driving me to king’s mill and we didn’t really speak until we were sat in the waiting room, she asked me if I wanted her to come in when the anaesthetist spoke to me, I must have looked at her gone out because she started to tell me about what he would say and why he would speak to me. So I just said no I’ll be fine so he came and went and I was back sat with mum in no time. She asked if I was scared I said yeah terrified she got hold of my hand and said “do you really think I’m going to let anything happen to you? “so I said no and just like that my fear was gone. I told mum to go as the nurse had said I would be the first operation of the day because mine was the longest. So I gave mum a massive hug and then I watched as she walked though some big double doors. Before long I was lay on a bed having my cannula put in and then the injection in my spine. One of the specialists remarked how calm I was and I joked I won’t be if I wake up with this bloody bag still attached to me. The next thing I remember is being woken up 8 hours later after my 6 hour operation and 2 hours to correct my 2 collapsed lungs I remember the I c u nurse saying don’t worry you’re going to be fine and I thought yeah I know my mum had already told me this morning. Now I’m sure your thinking that I’ve just told you a story about me, but what I have failed to mention is the day before my operation my mum had a 8 hour blood transfusion and really wasn’t well herself but no matter what happened that day my mum was going to make sure I was ok.

My eyes filled up with tears as I heard the news
It never occurred to me, how much I could lose
I find myself wishing that it wasn't real
Every time I think about it, pain is all I can feel
Tears fall from my eyes, I can barely see
But my heart tells me that she will always be with me
I’m glad she feels no pain now-she lives in a perfect land
I can still feel the soft touch on my shoulder of her loving hand
I lie in bed and cry at night
And I don’t feel any better in the morning light
And I will love and miss her forever
Until the day we are again together.
Together in that perfect place above,
Filled with caring, sharing and love
But until that day comes- I will wipe my tears away.
And hopefully see her again someday

I didnt always see eye to eye with barbara but she was an amazing person and loved her family very much,was really proud of how she fought the cancer for 2 and a half years,she will be missed by all who knew her. I know she wouldnt want the ones she left behind to be sad and joanne and eloise will be looked after.
rest in peace barbs love dave xxxxx