Michael David Kearns (22 Jul 1957 - 23 Oct 2017)

Love you.

miss you x

Ellie Goulding - I Know You Care

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FNGRszRRWjI

Dear Dad
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As a child I did not understand,
Why you were cross, why you scolded me,
I just saw a void, in emotion,
A furrowed brow and red face,
That hardened disappointment,
That burnt.

I think the first time I saw you cry,
Truly cry, with rolling tears,
And fear for me. That front
Was ripped down, peeled away.
You started to uncurl.

Here in my pockets, I tightly hold
Many treasured recollections,.
Crazy golf tournaments and
Sand castle contests in Broadstairs.
Collecting shells from the beach,
And paddling as the sun came down,
The time you gave me macaroni cheese,
From the can, Heinz, but I didn’t care,
I loved it because it was from you.

Cinema trips with the same joke you’d always make
Without fail as the adverts and trailers ended,
Exclaiming gleefully “oh that was a good film!”
Thorpe Park super soak, and outings to Guildford Spectrum,
Late night Ice Skating, as Matthew raced around,
We flailed hopelessly, holding on to the railings,
Or each other’s hands as we fell down.

Sometimes it would be bowling, a few times
You’d let me win, then on to pizza hut.
Always a Margarita personal pan.
If Burger King, you’d always pick the gherkins,
And onions from my cheeseburger.
The numerous stuffed animals,
You won me at the arcades, or
From those random grab machines.

But you became human,
I realised why, and how you became
The way you were,
You’d experienced pain,
Grief, loss, and I knew then
You just wanted the best for us.

At my graduation, I hoped,
I think I saw a little pride,
Which meant the world.
More than the world.
To make you proud,
Was all I ever wanted.
And all I still want.

Dad, I will miss you,
More than you probably ever knew,
You gave me guts, a little sense of fight,
I’m dimming the lights,
Humming some cheesy pop song you’d
Never admit to liking, and
Nibbling at the end of a Toblerone.*



*private joke :).