Helen MacKellar (2 Jul 1925 - 19 Jul 2017)

mum dec 25/23 wet xmas day just myself and bonnie as always mum its just another day for me and il do my usual stuff whatever that is. i miss you so very much and all my furbabies. sending you love mum. xx

mum it has now been 5 years when i said my final goodbyes to you, its still hard for me sitting here writing this without my tears falling, the month of your birth the month of your death and the month you left this earth, sadly leo went to the rainbow bridge also in april, his loss also hurts me deeply, i miss him too. your nephew james also left this year and as a i hear all your family have now all gone as well as dads. ageing is crap and thats no lie. i dont know if we will ever say hello again all of us, i just feel so lonely and fed up without your company. albeit im sure ive heard you say my name many times. rest well mum, i love and miss you very much.

mum i miss you so very very much. i just cant say how lost i feel without my mammy. its been 3 years but still feel so upset at your loss. leo your wee boy is 16 now and boy he fights to live daily. all your family are gone now, i heard your brother david died last year, of course i was told through the grapevine. dads sister lottie died last year too only betty left. your house has now been knocked to the ground now mum and ive been told 2 houses built in its place. anyway mum just to say i love you and hope your resting well x

mum i still miss you very much this year 2020 has been a crazy one since march lives are at the mercy of a virus. daily we wear masks its crazy this is what they call the new norm. i hope wee reg is cradling in your arms with duke garbo rosie lucy scamp i miss you all and dad plus aunty marg. im not in eltringham anymore im not even sure why im living where i am right now, i struggle on my own very much tbh i hate it. leo is still with me albet hes now 16 after losing reg i said no more but i gained a wee lady called bonnie you would love her but shes a wee shite at times noisy omg. lol.. i work 7 days a week earning very little as work now is very erratic anyway mum sorry for the long delay in posting but you know i see your star every night near my new front window i do say hello and hope one day you will blink back to hello to me x i love u and weep for u every day xxxx

maamy wee reg has gone to the raibow bridge 5th sept my heart is broken at his loss ur wee beautiful boy please mammy look after him the house is so empty without you both now only myselgf and leo left missing u both more than words can say he was a furball full of character and goodness me how quiet is this house

mammy i weep today more than you know sadly i lost u on this day last year at this time my heart is broken and will never mend..u fell asleep in my arms il never forget that day
your wee boys are still here with me leo and reg have now accepted you will not come home again its been a very long year, they say each year gets easier right now i dont feel that way at all. i will miss you till the day i leave this world then my pain will go.

MacKELLAR Helen (nee Hastie) (Slateford / Chesser) Sadly, at the Western General Hospital, on July 19, 2017, Helen, wife of the late Duncan MacKellar, beloved mum of Caroline and aunty to the family. A service will be held at Mortonhall Crematorium, Pentland Chapel, on Monday, July 31, at 3.30 pm, to which all are welcome. No flowers please. Published in Edinburgh News on July 26, 2017

the days are really long mum ive been working loads to keep busy plus added more to my shedule again..to pay bill etc..winter has been cold and so is the back of the house..ive heaters everywhere its just draining my cash im robbing pete to pay paul..its days like today when ive been at home all day they just drag with u not to talk too..it was burns day the other day i posted up your songs on facebook.. and yep i cried buckets at green grow the rashes o..i dont think its get easier tbh..leo is getn so thin..he hardly eats but still wants to run with foxes reg as ever is still a wee bully boy..they miss u too..always running into the bathroom when we come home or your bedroom to find u..reg barks at the gate not sure if you hear him where u are...lotsa changes here..peter and jo will be going over to live in oz soon..so more changes..ud hate it now with the folks in the houses right at your back door..i can hear every convo and see them thru the hedicote bush..the garden fek knows how im gonna deal with that wen spring arrives..
anyhow mum..must go miss u everyday and every night..this house has lost you and your energy..it will never be the same...love u.xx