Christine Helen Brown (18 Dec 1950 - 19 Feb 2017)

I thought the world of you, but you knew that already. The conversations and laughs we had will always be cherished and remembered. A truly wonderful woman. My thoughts are with Donna, Lee and the wonderful grandkids she always spoke so proudly of. Sleep tight in the arms of the angels beautiful lady xx

I will be thinking of you tomorrow. Im sorry i carnt be there but im not well enough to attend. Love to you all and my deepest sympathy

It was really nice to see you on FaceTime Friday night you looked so happy
It so sad you had to go but god only takes the good one early, you will be missed by a lot of people but I'm sure you will be watching over each and everyone one of them r.i.p Chris such a lovely lady
Big hugs to all the family at this sad time

My beautiful mum.
How do I carry on without you?

I'm grateful that I had the chance to look after you in your final days, I made you a promise that you wouldn't be on your own.

It was the worst and best week of my life. Best in the sense that I had the opportunity to spend time with you reminiscing and chatting about anything and everything. Worst in the sense that I watched you suffer and couldn't do anything to make you better. You cried on my shoulder and told me you didn't want to go, that you wanted to be around for the grandkids, the truth is you will always be around for them. You'll be watching over them and they will carry your love with them for the rest of their lives.

I love you mum, I miss you so much. Till we see each other again.......

See you later.

xxx

Donna, Lee, Steve and all the family we were so sorry to hear about Chris. We have such fond memories of our wonderful Christmas's together. And we will cherish them. Sending all our love. Sue, Richard, Lisa and Alison. Xx

Dear Nanna,
I am writing this letter to you exactly a week after you passed away. I know you didn’t want to leave us all but unfortunately sometimes we don’t get to choose when our time on this earth ends. Believe me I wish you could have stayed too as there are so many events I wanted you to be part of in my future. I know however that wherever you are you will be right there with me, every step of the way. That makes me happy.
The last week was hard for us but I know it was so much harder for you. Last weekend every second felt like a year was passing and it was hard seeing you in so much distress. When I arrived Saturday afternoon I honestly thought I could still have a conversation with you and it broke my heart when I found out that couldn’t be the case. But I know you were there still listening to me rambling on to you about nothing in particular. I stayed the night because at that point I wasn’t ready to say it. It took me all night to build up the strength to go in your room and just say one word: goodbye. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I hope you don’t mind that I stayed because I know you didn’t want me to see you that way but I needed to stay and I’m very glad I did.
You told every carer and nurse that visited you how proud you were of your children and grandchildren and I’m glad you felt that way. I never told you this but I will be forever proud of you. I hope in the future I will continue to make you proud. I’m grateful for the 19 years I could spend in your company, I wish it could have been longer but sadly that isn’t something any of us can control.
This week has felt so long. The hardest part is seeing everyone else I love upset. In some ways, you’ve brought everyone closer together and I know that would make you happy to know that. It makes me happy as I love our family so much.
I know you didn’t want to leave us and believe me we didn’t want you to leave either but I know wherever you are now you aren’t suffering. Your funeral is a week on Monday. We’ve gone all out, you have horses and everything! I’m going to read a poem and I hope you like it. I just felt like I wanted to be part of saying goodbye to you somehow.
I love and miss you so much Nanna and I know that won’t get better over time but in some ways, you’ve encouraged me to go on living my life as well as I possibly can. You’ve taught me that every moment counts in this life so I intend to go out and live it. I hope you understand now that it isn’t so bad to let go.
Don’t wander too far there are a lot of things I’m going to show you in the future. All I hope is that wherever you are you will continue to be as proud as I know you always were of me.
Once again, I’m stalling because it’s just so hard to say it.
But I’m not going to say it. I’m going to say see you later, because I will.
I love you so much and I’m sorry you had to go.
Emily xxxxxxx