Caron Butler (27 May 1968 - 21 Dec 2016)

For all the times you stood by me (smoking joey, Moses) everything you stood by me mar and since you’ve been gone I’ve tried to be strong (like I got told, it’s all on me) but the truth is I’m not the strongest. Sock of my weakness being taken for granted. You gave me strength you was always there for me shining your love into my eyes when I couldn’t see.... you saw the best in me, I’m everything I am because you loved meeee xxxxxxxx

Mar it’s coming up to your birthday it’s really killing me but ones thinking of you I love you more then ever xxxxx

Hey mar, I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms
If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
If I can see it, then I can be it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can sore
I see me runnin through that open door
I believe I can fly.....your giving me my wings to leave Nottingham and live my life there’s no family here for me anymore I love you so much PLEASE NEVER FORGET THAT XXXXXXX

Hey mar, only me again! I’ve been working on the house....now I’ve done the back garden how you liked it, still yet to sort the green house please forgive and give me time.
Starting the front tomorrow wish me luck with the cars and crap on there 😂😂 I hope your happy up there and watching down on me thank you so very much for bringing me into this world. I love you more then you’ll ever know wish I told you more all my love jade xxx

Hey mar, it’s me again!
I keep having mad steam that your Alice and going through tough times, I just wish them dreams was true and I could help you..they seem so real then I wake up and remembered it’s all a dream and your never coming....I talk to Blu about you all the time and she shouts nana like she sees you I really hope a does I know your gone but your the only nana she’ll ever have, she’ll know every story about you (to dressing is in Mancky leggings) 🤦🏻‍♀️😂 we love you so very much mar xxxx

Hey mar, I know your there!
Please help me really don’t know what to do. Your advise really would help I’m so lost. I mowed you xxx

Hey mar, what’s going on!
Hope your ok, it’s been awhile but just know I’ve not forgot about you.
I’ve met someone I really like him, I think you would to! I’ve told him what’s going on, he told me to Be careful, I guess he just doesn’t know me yet, I can handle myself, I hind a lot of feelings. Nobody will ever understand that loosing you was/is the hardest thing to ever happen to me, I hope my mouth don’t push him away also.
I miss you so much mar, my body is on the journey and my mind can’t let go... I love you. I see everyone else smile, but I’d love to know how they do it because without you for me happiness ain’t real, what I’d give to swap places ❤ Please give kisses to all up above xxxx

3years today mar, how I miss you more and more each day is unreal, seriously this pain just doesn’t go away🥰 I’d give my life to have you back, what I’d do just to have one more hug/conversation or even just to tell you how much I love you is unreal 💔❤️💔 fly high beautiful 💔❤️💔

33 months mar, it’s been a while to be honest been abit embarrassed talking to myself but I’ll never stop needing you. What I’d do to have one last conversation with you, you always new what was going on before you was told! I just wish I got to hear your opinion. I’ve tired to be so soft, but I’m constantly hurting myself, ignoring what’s really going on....:loosing you I’ve lost who I really am, where as the hard faced notch gone!!!!

Hey mum grandads fighting his hardest, come through and let him know it’s ok and safe he will be himself again and please tell him that I’m starry for letting his kids get there own way to put him in a care home but know he’s ready and needs you and his wife I love you all so much.....kisses to you mala, Matt mama and lucka xxxxx

So Mar it was your birthday yesterday sorry I’m late but I wish you a very happy birthday up there in heaven, I wish i could give you a big birthday kiss but don’t worry I’m counting how many I owe you....we’ve celebrated for you and had a really good evening. I wish you could hear fats shouting nanna 😢 I love you so much Esme heard about you day in day out fly high angel 😇 xxxx

It’s another day mar, I’m making so many bad mistakes. Like seriously when are things gonna go my way, I really need your advice and guidance 😭💔 xx

I miss you mar, it’s been almost 28 months now. I still can’t accept that your gone, I wish you’d just walk through the door with your suitcase and bright red (burnt) skin like you’ve been on holiday....I seriously can’t explain how I’ve changed and so lost I love you so much hope your smiling down guiding me to raise Esme-blu, she sees your picture and knows who you are see you soon ❤️...wish mama a happy birthday for me, I love you both xxx