Dearest Nick,
I'm sorry I haven't said anything sooner; talking about it and trying to find the right words just made it too real. There is still part of me that desperately wants this to be a horrible nightmare, but I know it isn't. I still can't believe you're gone.
We grew up around the corner from each other. I always wanted to come over and play; always wanted to spend time with you, I honestly don't know how you put up with it. I was so persistent, it must have been so annoying!
I remember coming round for roast dinners. You and Chris would secretly lick bits of your food and give it to someone else, failing to contain your laughter as, whoever it was, ate the spit tainted food, which gave you away. The room would erupt in a harmony of disgusted groans and your mischievous giggles!
There were birthday parties that you invited me to, ice skating and go karting. Whilst you were with your friends, you did still try and include me even though I was probably embarrassing at that age, I vividly remember laughing at someone saying bus stop. What a wally right?
I remember you and Chris would record Saturday morning tv on VHS and then let me borrow the tapes without a fuss! It wasn't just the VHS tapes you let me borrow, but your video games as well. I was in such awe of your Final Fantasy games, that I was just happy to come over and watch you play. VII was your favourite! You always said your aim was for gravity defying Final Fantasy hair, I think once you said Squall specifically. Looking back at some of the pictures, you definitely achieved it!
If I knew you were going to be at one of our infamous Papa gatherings, I would be filled with such excitement because you were just so much fun. You never made anyone feel unwelcome and encouraged me to get involved; even if it was just to run and collect the cricket ball while you practiced hitting it with Dad.
I loved talking to you about healthy living, sometimes over a glass of wine, and learning new things about nutrition, who on earth am I going to turn to for such talk now?
I deeply regret that we grew apart as we got older, but it warms me knowing you lived a lifetime of happiness. I will always cherish my memories with you.
You were an inspiration, with one of the kindest souls that I will ever know, that lived life to the absolute fullest, and I hope to follow in those footsteps. I am so honoured that I got to call you my cousin, and I hope one day my smile brightens a room the way your's did.
All of my love in the world and more,
xxxxAnnie xxxx
P.S: Give Yiayia a kiss from me.
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