A mother and daughter bond is so profound. How can the limitations of language ever do this relationship justice? It feels almost impossible to put words to the love I feel for my mum, but I will try.
I have tremendous gratitude for the bond that mum and I shared. She was more than just my mum, she was my best friend. We were very open with each other, sharing our feelings, laughter, tears and some bickering here and there. When my mum and I were together no one could get a word in edgeways. I often wondered aloud why my children talk so much and mum would smile and give me a knowing look. I could always count on her to fight my corner and that of the kids too. I will miss her forever.
It was an invaluable experience to be by mum’s side during her final days and nights, holding her hand and listening to stories of her childhood. Every one of you here knows that mum was a fighter and sometimes very stubborn.-she always knew what she wanted and usually achieved it through hard work and determination.
As my mum began to pass away I thought ‘maybe she doesn’t want to go’ she was a fighter even during her final hours. Even at the very end she did things her way and went when she was ready ( whilst being pampered-in true Anne style)
My mum wasn’t old enough to leave us, I wasn’t ready to say goodbye but her core motivating force was LOVE and it was her love that had a profound impact on the person that I am today. My mum lives on in my heart. She gave me the foundation on which my whole life is built and I am truly grateful for all the lessons she has taught me. People say I am my mothers’ daughter and nothing could make me prouder.
The greatest lesson my mum taught me was to be caring, affectionate, forgiving and determined, she taught me never to give up and to live life to the full. She always believed in me even, and especially, when I doubted myself. She was the best mum and Nanna anyone could ever wish for. I remember when I told her I was pregnant with Brandon, her response was ‘’I’m not old enough to be a nanna’’ I think she almost passed out but she was a great Nanna and she loved her grandchildren more than words can say. She spoiled them rotten and told me of for shouting at them, she gave them chocolate for breakfast and got Ruby-Mai obsessed with shoes. Together they built memories.
One of the things mum wanted more than anything was to see her grandchildren grow up, she won’t be here but she will watch them from Heaven and guide them in everything they do. She will never be forgotten and she will never truly be gone because every day she lives on in us, her children and grandchildren.
Mum I make you this promise; I will make you proud and speak your name every day. Brandon and Ruby-Mai will grow up with you in their lives. I love you mum, so very, very much. Thank you for being you.
Love Sarah.
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