Dell Carthy (19 Jul 1963 - 9 Jun 2016)

Your 1st anniversary xxx

A year ago  is when I lost you 
A day I will always remember
I wish you didn't have to go
But your heart just had to surrender

A year ago was the worst day ever
Finding you so peaceful and still
But the fact you had gone forever
Broke my heart the beats I no longer feel

A year ago you gained your wings
And the angels got a brand new friend
As i sit here and remember all the times
We  said we would be together till the end

A year ago  my darling you left me
Even though I knew you didn't want to
I just wish we had a little bit longer 
To do the things we wanted to do

My Dell boy I do love and miss you so
L. U.M xxxxx always yours Doris xxx





 

I wish   I could see you once more
I wish   you would walk through that door

I wish    I could hear your voice again
I wish    I could see your face smiling

I wish   this nightmare just wernt true
I  wish  as I really really do love you

I wish   this was not what it seems
I wish  I would wake up from a bad dream

I wish and I wish but it never comes true
I wish and wish but still I don't see you

You was always by my side
and now you are far away
Our love is always in my heart
And there it will always stay

From the 1st day I saw you
I knew you were the one
With those lovely blue eyes
With the  twinkling  of fun

From across the bar
Is where we 1st met
Our eyes always looking
1st date on the cards will be soon I bet

You walked me home and kissed me goodnight
But as I lay in bed all I saw was you when I closed my eyes tight

Your warm loving smile
And your kind embrace
The beautiful kisses and
The handsome look on your face 


As i look at some  memories here on my phone
There's only  1 thing  that i would of changed
Yes my darling dell boy
You would never of left here on your own
Xxxxx


Dell boy .........

I often sit up at night and just think of you
Are you looking down on me
And  know the pain I'm going through

I thought it might be a little easier
As the weeks and days pass by
But dell it just gets bloody  harder
With that I cannot lie

Some days I can be normal
Well as normal as can be
But most of the time
My grief just  takes control of me

I know deep down inside
you wouldn't want me like this
I do try very hard but
Its everything about you
I really truly  miss xxx

New home in the sky

Dell you have left me your new home is in the sky
I always look up and try to see you but I don't that's when I start to cry

The tears they always flow freely all the way down my face
I do really try to stop them and leave no trace
Because when I see others and they ask if I'm OK
I smile at them say yes see you later and have a great day

I walk home so quickly trying not to cry
But they just well up inside of me as once again I look to the sky
Where are you now I can't see you is all I want to say
I hope you don't hate me because of the way I am today

I know I will be strong again one day
But when it comes around I really can't say
Until then my tears will flow I can't lie
As I look once again for you way up in the sky

My 1st birthday without you xx

Well it is my birthday 2day
And normally I'm a little bit delighted
Because deep down inside of me
I'm a big kid all eyes on me and I get excited

Presents and cards and we love you's
Laughing and giggling I love it yes it's true
Even a birthday cake especially for me
Blow out the candles make a wish
Will it come true?  Well let's wait and see

As I stand and watch this happy scene
I hear myself mumble wake up Liz...
Your having a really bad dream
And as I wake and rub my eyes
I look around and see it was all lies

Yes it is  my birthday 2day
The wish that I made well what would that be
There is only one wish I could ask for
And that is that you was here with me

 YES IT IS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY 

Dell you were a wonderful partner to my daughter Liz. Thank you for looking after her, you will never be forgotten RIP my friend

To Dell Carthy

You was always by my side
and now you are far away
Our love is always in my heart
And there it will always stay

From the 1st day I saw you
I knew you were the one
With those lovely blue eyes
With the twinkling of fun

From across the bar
Is where we 1st met
Our eyes always looking
1st date on the cards will be soon I bet

You walked me home and kissed me goodnight
But as I lay in bed all I saw was you when I closed my eyes tight
Your warm loving smile
And your kind embrace
The beautiful kisses and
The handsome look on your boat race

Me and you
You and me
For 25 yrs
That's the way it was going to be

As i look at some memories here on my phone
There's only 1 thing that i would of changed
Yes my darling dell boy
You would never of left here on your own
Xxxxx

The Next Day xx a poem I wrote for Dell Carthy

The plans have all been done
The verses were read through
Everyone had a say of exactly
What they thought of you

The cars and the people
All that came that day
To show the love for you
In a very special way

But now it comes and everyone
has gone back to their home
Stuck here in my loneliness
Sad and crying all alone

They say that time is a healer
I hope what they say is true
Because right at this minute dell
I can't do this without you

How strong and great I'm doing
That's all I seem to hear
They just can't seem to see
The pain and hurt in here

I just go on day by day by day
And listen quietly at all they have to say
And then I smile so sweetly and thoughts are in my head
Didn't you really listen to what ive just said

So off to bed early
That's what I seem to do
But we know the real reason is
So I can dream of you

We will be back in each others arms
That's what we always do
Just a shame I have to wake up
And its always without you xxx