Amanda Jane Halloran (28 May 1979 - 30 Apr 2024)

A beautiful day yesterday, the sun was shining so bright for you. I will miss you forever and treasure every memory we made. Everytime I eat a caesar salad I will think of you 😂. Love you forever xx

Amanda, my beautiful wife

You were beautiful in every sense of the word. You couldn't help but be your own authentic self in all situations and I was captivated by your energy from the moment we met.

You loved to collect things that you found pretty, and surrounded yourself with those things. Anything that sparkled, miniatures or collectables from your favourite films and especially musicals and Disney.

You wore your heart on your sleeve at all times, you laughed and you cried like no one was watching. Your laugh will never leave me as we shared so many fun and happy times together. That laugh also wasn't far away when watching the TV shows you loved like Absolutely Fabulous, Only Fools and Horses, The Vicar if Dibley and Bottom to name a few.

We got to see so much of the world together and shared some amazing holidays with memories I'll never forget, including the isolated beach apartment we stayed in in Grenada, and the beautiful islands of Mauritius and Cayo Levantado, the latter for our honeymoon.
We never got the chance to go to New York and travel in a yellow taxi and go to Broadway as you wanted, I'll take Alannah some day and we'll do all the things you talked about.

You were an incredible mum to Alannah, you loved her so much and made every day of her life special. Your love didn't stop there though, you wanted everyone and every living creature to be happy and loved all the time. There wasn't a day in our long relationship where you didn't tell me you loved me at least once, and I knew every time you said it you meant it. You told me endlessly about how much you loved your family and friends.

While there was no end to your love, there was also no end to your pain when seeing the ones you loved suffer. There were a few times in your life which caused you immense pain, your heart was left permanently broken by the passing of your Dad and as much as we tried, I'm so sorry we never found a healthy outlet for your pain that would stick. Alcohol would numb your pain, and although you were never 'drunk' because you hated the way it made you feel, the amount you needed to numb your pain increased until your precious body could take no more.

I never want to let you go but every time I reach out for one of your hugs, you're no longer there. While it seems impossible right now, I have to let you go so I can build something special for our daughter which I know you wanted so much.

All my love. Ed
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For those affected by the terrible effects of alcohol addiction please, for the love of god, get help. There can be a life of love and happiness past the worst of your pain.

All donations made today will go to Al-Anon - For families and friends of Alcoholics. Al-Anon was vital in helping me cope with what is a complex and isolating disease.

If you don't want to speak to a helpline, feel free to reach out to me in confidence, where I can share all the resources and knowledge I have accumulated over the years.

I hope your at rest gorgeous girl and having a great chat with dad. I can't sleep thinking about you. Alannah doing so well. I will always make sure 'princess freya' looks after Alannah forever. Your so missed and loved xx sweet dreams.😭

My darling Mand,

I've just heard the saddest news and still in shock.

I first met you when you were 14 and we clicked straightaway. What a ride we had and how many wonderful memories I have of you.
You lit up every room, we would laugh, sing, dance wherever we went.
We would wind each other up and both shared a love of sarcasm.
You nicknamed me fraggle, which I'm still called today 😂.
Our songs were Pink Floyed Wish you were here and BonJovis Livin on a prayer and they will be our songs forever. We would sing them at the top of our voices walking down the road.
We wouldn't see each other for years but when we did, it was like no time had passed.
It was a pleasure to have made these wonderful memories and thank you for being my friend. You will be truly missed ❤️❤️
Tonight I will light my pinkist candle. Fly high angel. Leanne xxx

Dear Amanda, I haven’t been able to find the words to write something on here and struggling to think of a life without you in it.
I am going to miss your laugh and smiley face, and showing me new things, whether it’s a Disney to your collection or a new crystal, or something sparkly even though we didn’t know what it was for, I am going to miss the funny voice messages you used to leave me and the messages you used to send, even though you are a lot quicker than me and I couldn’t keep up, so didn’t really know what was going on.
You are a beautiful person and had a lovely, caring nature, you mean so much to so many people and we are all going to miss you always, but you are forever in our hearts. Love you lots xxx

I'm missing you so much Manda, & as each day passes, I'm missing you even more and it hurts. I can't believe I've lost you before you lose me.
I'll always remember you taking the mickey & imitating me sitting rigid with your arms outstretched because I can't relax!
You saying my taste in music is rubbish. I won't mention your's though! These times will always make me chuckle.
Thank you for being so supportive when I lost Angel. We dearly loved all our cats and I know Purdy is missing you very much.
Your caring diamond of a Husband, Ed, your amazing Daughter, Alannah, your wonderful crazy Brother Ben,
your silly ole Mum and a loving family all love and miss you like you can't imagine.
All the love in the world to you Manda. Your Mum ❤ xxxxxxx ❤