Mum, I am missing you terribly, what I would give to have you hear with us all as it approaches Christma, your favourite time of the year.
You taught us love, morals and loyalty in abundance. Something I will forever be proud of and hope myself to follow in your footsteps with that.
As a mum, and people throw this around too loosely, you were the best, and we were all luck to have had you in our lives.
They say grief is the biggest price that we pay for love. And I'm only just now realising I've lost one of the best people in my life.
It's only now, as we approach Christmas, that your loss is starting to be acceptes by me, this will be my last of all the first without you. Last year was our last Christmas with you and family holiday.
Looking back on the videos I can see how desperately ill you were but hoe in awe of you I am. You never complained, you kept strong for us despite feeling petrified. You opened up to me and let me look after you, it was the least I could do after how well you looked after all of us, dad, James, Paula,nana, penny, granny and granda, auntie Davina and uncle craig, uncle Michael, uncle James and Kay, uncle Gerry & Auntie Violet and auntie Liz and the her belated hubby, our uncle John.
And last but most certainly not least mum all your grandkids, you were there with is all. I came out of surgery after telling stu not to let anyone hold Alex until I had, and of course, there you were, arms astretch with adoring eyes and stu understandely couldn't decline your urgency to hold your first born grandchild.
From then on you went on to dote on your 7 grandchild 3 boys and 4 girls.
I cannot believe that on the 23rd of this morning you will have been gone 9 months. What I would give to reverse back to last year at dumfries. I'd have hugged you more, kissed and told you every thing that I'm so grateful of.
We will of course have a place at the christmas and boxing day table in the house we rent in Portpatrick dressed with an Xmas themed themed jumper you wore last hear at our break away.
And as always I'll have a place set for you in my home at every special occasion and talk about you every day.
I love you more than words could ever say, and if I had another 10 lifetimes I could never have wished for a better mother, role model, friend and cheerleader.
Sorry it has taken this long to speak to you, I've just been lost without your guidance.
Until we meet again my darling mother, I love you endlessly. You took a large part of my heart and soul when you left and I plan on getting them when I see you again.
Forever in awe of you, your loving daughter,
Lynne 😘
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