Sorry it has taken so long K.
It is the hardest thing to write your thoughts when someone has the kind of energy you do, it's too enormous to put down into words but this is for Madison and Lainey to look back on so I'll try my very best as they're your world.
You're the most selfless, beautiful human, you were naturally caring, you had a heart of gold, you were full of light, pure sunshine, I could introduce you to anyone and they instantly loved you!
You were just yourself and that made me be myself, you always put me at ease.
You've had my back since 2002, studying Performing Arts, I didn't know anyone starting the course but you took me under your wing, we loved watching shows & performing ourselves, we had an absolute blast together, our poor tutor Vincent and that Backstreet Boys song 🤣 as always you had my back! I could watch you all day, your energy was enchanting.
Oh to see those college videos now!
I remember we thought we were the next best girl band. You left Performing Arts to start working and I went to study Travel & Tourism.
We had a few nights out & birthday's but lost touch until you later found me on social media (Facebook) I was pregnant with Layla & you were expecting Lainey in the February. Life again showing us to lean on each other but you were such a natural Mummy, just perfection, you made it look effortless. You gave me so much advice and just grew this confidence in me.
I was alone in hospital willing for Layla to make it back to me & you were keeping my mindset positive, praying for Layla, I told you I thought I was developing anxiety and you eased me as you always do.
So many can show up for the good times, you showed up in my darkest moments & that was everything. I'll never forget that K. I bought my apartment and you came over with the most gorgeous flowers and we sat for ages chatting with our girls playing. It was all new to me and you gave me so much advice.
You had my back in college & even more so throughout motherhood, my cheerleader in life, supporting me, giving me advice, wishing nothing but the best for me.
Then the night came when we lost Georgi & it turned out Georgi was Madison's favourite nursery teacher.
Life again showing us to lean on each other.
We decided to host Georgi a festival for what would have been her birthday & you found us a DJ (thank you Dan) to play after the artists had been on.
I even convinced you to sing.
Madison & Lainey did a duet too. A song from Frozen if I remember correctly.
It warmed our hearts to see our 4 girls on stage together like we used to be at college. It had gone from us, to them, showing everyone their moves!
You were so happy for me, nothing but encouragement always.
We were always trying to coordinate play dates or a cuppa. You were always messaging or singing my praise on Facebook.
Some paths are destined to cross and I am so grateful our paths were forever crossing.
Life again surprised us at Neil's Nan's house, we turned up & you were already there, Neil went in first & I just heard you say 'Hello you, what are you doing here?' in your joyful tone & instantly knew it was you before I walked in. You'd just swapped patients to help out at work but how lovely that it was you there, caring for her, checking her poorly leg.
You told us that you'd secured a new job with Marie Curie and so you were leaving this job and you were so excited. I was so pleased for you, how incredible you are that you wanted to bring everyone the care & joy they deserved at the end of their lives.
Neil's Uncle Barry turned up and you knew him too, you told us all a funny story about his son's when you were younger and we all laughed, you were the light in the room as always my lovely!
Forever proud of the many people you've cared for with the same love you'd show your own.
After the covid lockdown I started my teepee business & you shared it, booked them, shared again, booked again, forever my cheerleader. You loved the little details and surprising your girls.
I booked to go to Ibiza and so did you, you were filling me in on what to pack. Tea bags, obviously 🤣
My heart wasn't ready to hear what you said. I hope I showed up in the darkness enough, like you showed up in mine, I'm always here, we'd say. I'm still always here K.
My first day back after this Christmas I handed my notice into the school, I wanted to be able to pop in instead of working 7 days with my Teepee's business too, I wanted to be able to make memories how little or big was completely up to you. You were teaching us all to be present, life was too short. You slipped away too soon, it's broken me but no one deserves to be free of pain more than you my lovely.
You've never asked me for anything but you asked me for something & I promise I'm trying so hard 🤍
You took a piece of me with you but that's ok, I know that you'll keep it safe.
My songbird, my warrior, the best Mummy, the strongest person I know.
I haven't seen strength like it.
Your love for your girls is enormous! They were your driving force to keep going. Fueled by love for them.
You're so incredibly brave my lovely.
Forever heartbroken you're gone, forever grateful for you and forever proud of you.
Rest easy beautiful, love you always, your Ali Baba x
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