I met Nikki 21 yrs ago post my stillbirth. I remember on speaking over the phone for the 1st time how kind her voice sounded, so I knew I was in good hands.
Nikki helped me get through my next pregnancy to which I gave birth to a beautiful baby’s boy, Charlie, and after that, we just stuck. I didn’t want to go through life without her and for some reason she couldn’t keep away, that’s when Charlie decided to make her his god mother.
Charlie loved that Nikki & Pete’s home was a ‘rule free’ home… I wonder why…? Garden hose springs to mind…
We lost touch for a short while but i soon tracked her down when I’d heard about the accident. Then there was no getting rid of us! But I’m so glad I did. She’d already suffered her near fatal car accident and that’s when I was so upset that I never got to thank her and say goodbye. But, I did. Just too soon.
Charlie sadly passed away from a rare aggressive leukaemia at the young age of 16, and Nikki was always around for him. Sending her silly cards to make him smile and when he was home, she’d visit, with muffins of his choice of course. Even in hospital at times. I loved the banter they shared. Nikki got to say goodbye to her godson, Charlie.
I would like to say that i knew Nikki. But I didn’t. Not really. Although she was in our lives for 21 yrs, she was that selfless that she never or rarely spoke of herself. Maybe we were too selfish to ask….?
Nikki gave up so much of her time and her own life to help and be around others who needed her. Always putting herself last, again. I’ve never met and will never meet anyone like it again. But we do still have Pete which we are so grateful for. As I promised her, I will continue to check in on him, annoy him and serve him shit tea.
I guess you could say that all us women Nikki had supported through stillbirth and child losses I’ve rather yrs, have now become her surrogate. Nikki has now become the mother she never was on this earth plane. My Cameron and Charlie have gained the best possible Angel mummy. And I know she’ll be the best mummy to all those other babies too.
Nikki will be sorely missed by hundreds, by me but more so by Pete.
What are we going to do without you Mrs A?
I will be eternally grateful for having you in our lives. Look after my boys. I’ll always miss you and your warm smile and cuddles. Until we meet again.. Sleep tight Angel xxxx
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