It was Tuesday 22nd, first day back to school, sitting in Chemistry when I got the call. Walking to the car thinking my father had been daft. Next thing we know were on track to see you. 2 hours of panic, worry and fear, sitting in the car with you on our mind! We arrive at the doors and up to the wards, to find you were still with us and we could see you again. The hours passed, my dad and sisters had gone home and left me with mum. It was lovely to see your warm smile through all that was going on. We stayed late that night and I held your hand said goodnight and let you know I love you. The long night had passed but before we knew it we were here with you again. Our final hours with you spent that morning, thank you for the memories and the time you gave to us. Thank you for always smiling and making us happy every second we were with you. Wednesday the 23rd you took your last breath. It all happens so quickly. You're a remarkable and strong person and I am thankful you hung in for us to see you that one more time. I kissed you on the cheek and that's when we left. We are sad that we will not see you for a while. But I learnt an important lesson from my experience in this short amount of time. Sitting in your bedroom later that day but I was not alone, I couldn't see you, I couldn't hear you but you let me know you were there. It was a feeling stronger than any I had felt before, people may think I'm crazy but I know you were letting me know you are here still. And although you cannot be here in your body, and we cannot see your smile, you are with us now, closer than ever before. It may not be that you are in the same room or sitting next to us, it may only be that you are looking over us. This does not stop the fact that for the rest of our lives we can feel every single day the love that you feel for us, your smile, your laugh, your happy personality that made you the amazing grandad you were and still are! You never left us that day, you simply went home and you went to see your family. I feel you now everyday and I know you will be here whenever any of us call. I am so unbelievably thankful that I could see you that last time and that I know you are always with us. And I know that this is not where it ends and I will see you again in the future. I love you grandad, thank you! x x x
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